22 Jan 2011

Why can't I just say it? I want to... God do I want to... but I just can't do it. It's just three simple words. But I think that's where I'm wrong. Those words are anything but simple. Those words have the ability to change lives. But in this case I know it would be changing for the better, for me that is... and even that depends on what she says. I might just do the old facebook msg that I am so adept at. It has very rarely failed me... yet, I know it is the chicken shit way of going about it... but I never claimed not to be.

19 Jan 2011 14:57

Why does she seem so distant today? She has since this morning. I don't understand, if she has a problem I hope she knows that she can come to me for help. If it's something I did then I wish she would just tell me. I am so insecure as it is (more than I usually let on) and I worry that I might lose her. We have only been together for such a short time, but I can tell that she is what I need. She is the type of person that could really make me straighten myself up. I hope that this is just a bad day.

19 Jan 2011 10:45

I have a feeling that I am falling in love. I hate to say that this early into a relationship, anyone who knows me or has read the intro to my book knows that I can't stand when people say "I love you" early in relationships. It's far too over used. But I find myself being around this girl and having the urge to say it, sometimes to the point that I wait for her to leave the room or turn away and I have to whisper it under my breath or mouth the words. I have never had a girl get in my head like this, to the point that I can't stop thinking about her, I have dreams and she is there, I close my eyes and I see her, I even hear her voice when she's not around and it makes me happy. God help me, I'm falling hard and fast....

First Post

Ok... so this is my first post on my own seperate blog... this blog I will be treating more as a diary than a blog. Yes I know that this is basically an open forum, but its my life and not many people on here know me, so I think I'm safe. I'm going to keep this post short... the other ones should be a lot longer.